So we haven't heard for sure but we are probably not going to be chosen as the family for the newborn baby girl. Her mom wants someone who is not in the Santa Cruz area and a couple that can't have children of their own. I understand that and know that there are at least 3 other families that she is choosing from that might match those criteria.
I was bummed but I know that when God has the right one for us we will know and it will all workout. It was hard having to give up the idea of a newborn again. When we decided to adopt I knew in all likelihood we wouldn't get a newborn so to be close to having one be an option made me realize that I still haven't given up that dream entirely.
However, this would've been a private adoption and after finding out how much it would cost it was a bit intimidating- especially for Jeff.
Maybe we'll hear something regarding the other available children soon. I really hope so! The waiting is so hard and I don't know how to guard my heart in the meantime.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Probably Not
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Yeah, that guarding your heart business is tricky. You don't want THE ONE to finally arrive and you weren't excited about it beforehand because you were being careful. I say keep doing what you are doing, thinking about each child, imagining what it would be like if he or she was in your family because I know you and the first thing you think of is to pray. Maybe just being in your heart for a couple days serves God's purpose for that child.
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