Nesting

Guess what? You don't need pregnancy hormones to have a crazy nesting instinct. I'm ridiculous right now! Taking down curtains to wash, dusting the ceiling, wiping down all the baseboards. Impatient to get the rooms set up so her newly washed clothes can be hanging neatly in the closet... it's a bit crazy but I'm so excited! We leave for vacation a little over a week from today and then bring her home the following weekend. There is a lot to do between now and next Saturday.

So when people ask if it's certain she'll be ours this is how I answer- "it's as sure as anything can be with adoption". I've decided to not entertain any fears that this might not happen. Just like when you first find out your prego you have a decision to make- share your news with everyone because you're so excited or wait to share your news until you're out of the first trimester and into the safer zone. I chose to risk losing my heart right now and believe everything will go smooth. That's what I did with my other two blessings as well.

I think about how our lives will change all the time now. I know it's going to rock my world but I'm comforted knowing God has worked everything out and will give us strength. We're just where He wants us to be- on the edge of "I can't do this on my own". That will keep us clinging to Him. To not only survive but thrive in the challenge and blessing He's put in front of us. I'm not naive... I know this is going to be a huge adjustment and that we're signing up for unexpected complication but I'm at peace knowing God's got us in His hands.

It's funny but, Siah is looking less like a baby to me ever since I heard the news. I find myself cuddling him more now just because I know I won't be as free to in a few weeks and that makes me a bit sad. He has kinda of turned into a momma's boy in the last few months and likes to cuddle. Of course he's still all boy and laughs in the face of pain! I've never seen a kid so tough. He's like a bulldozer- but cuddly and cute. Speaking of bulldozers, I can't wait to show you his new bed. It's the cutest tractor bed ever. He's going to be so excited to change rooms.

Tori is still very excited. She offered to share her duckie with her new sister which is HUGE! Duckie has been her #1 snuggle buddy since birth. Yesterday we read an adoption book together written by my friend Sherry Kyle and her daughter (who adopted through our same agency 10 years ago). The book really inspired Tori to write her own book about her baby sister. It was great to talk about this more in-depth with Tori. She colored a picture of what she's thinks her sister will look like and gave her curly hair. I hadn't thought of that... maybe she will have curls. Hopefully we'll see a picture on Monday.